The Sky is Blue

If you are a Mother, you worry. It is part of the gig. It doesn't matter if your child is 2 or 52, you worry. Are they safe? Are they working hard enough in school? Are they healthy? Will they make good choices? Are you screwing them up? Will they make something of themselves? Will they be good human beings? Have the morals and beliefs you have tried to instill in them stick with them? It is tough, and makes for many a sleepless night.  As a mother of teens, I can't tell you how many times I have bolted out of bed panicked because one of my boys wasn't home yet after a night out. With 5 kids, I cannot imagine the worry will lessen over time. Ha! It will only get worse. I have tools, mainly prayer, that keep the worry in check. One thing you cannot get around though is how worry mucks with your face!! That "11" wrinkle between my eyes really gets on my nerves. The bags under my eyes really tick me off.  Kids give you wrinkles, it is a proven fact! I

If ever there were a person who was less afraid of change than I am-- I have yet to meet them.  In fact, I would call myself a "change seeker", a habitual "cliff jumper".  That mentality comes with many a flaw: It makes it difficult for me to stick to a boring, or stressful task. It makes it very difficult for me to defer to the authority of others, I am not sure why that is, it is a rule breaker mentality I suppose. I have trouble with "negative nellie's", or those who must always play "devil's advocate." My brain says YES before it fully processes information. While all of those flaws must seem horrifying to the average person, me not so much. Not being an over analyzer frees me from many a burden: I don't have to know the outcome before leaping, so it opens me up to success.  It opens me up to failure too, no doubt, but I can process failure and move on better than most people. I don't freak out when inevitable

In a recent discussion with my sis, we delved into the differences between us-- primarily the introvert vs. extrovert difference. That inherent difference colors our views of most every situation and choice. I had no idea until that discussion how very differently we can view the very same thing. In fact, despite how it may appear to others, I really don't feel like an extrovert. I find small talk really challenging, I need alone time to recharge, time among large groups of people is exhausting. But I guess the difference is that I don't prioritize my alone time above interaction, I go to the event and socialize knowing I will be exhausted after. I guess I am a hybrid intro/extrovert. It takes a toll though. My drive to be doing "something" all of the time is difficult for some of my loved ones to understand. I am always creating something, starting a business, volunteering, supporting a cause-- it may seem a little crazy to you. I don't know what drives this, but