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Home, what's next?

Today is the last day of school for my oldest. The other guys still have two more weeks of school. That is one of the many joys of having kids in multiple school districts. Keeping track of the schedules is mind boggling. I am not really prepared for summer. There is simply to much going on at once. I have to say, for once, this chaos is not of my own making.

Dealing with the whole "our house is for sale" thing is enough to give me an ulcer. I cannot seem to get my head around the idea of moving. I am looking at homes, but nothing seems good to me. I feel like I need to establish a date, to give my brain a little structure to grab on to. Right now the whole situation seems so open ended. The house could sell fast, could sell slow, could not sell at all. I have no clue. I am just not really comfortable with letting the real estate market dictate the details of our next move. I would rather control it myself. Therein lies the rub. I think I would be better off taking a deep breath, and giving God enough room to lead the way. All of this thinking, is giving me a headache. I would rather be spending this time loving on my kids, being engaged with their end of the school year activities, planning for a fun summer. Instead I am planning, and worrying, and trying to prepare the kids for an uncertain next step. I am getting down in the dumps just writing about it. So, I am going to stop. I'll go take my shower, and then play with my toddler, and try to forget this whole mess for a little while. Hopefully my super optimist husband will help pull me out of this funk so I can enjoy the weekend.

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