Spring is here, and the school year seems to be speeding up. We are making plans for Summer, and even Fall already. I am still trying to nail down where 2 of my children will go to school next year. This is also the season when I begin planning my own Fall schedule. Potential commitments are starting to present themselves. I have really enjoyed being home and focused on Nick, and on my spiritual growth this past two years. I am feeling called to get back out into the world more though. That is in part, what prompted me to start my jewelry business. I am struggling now with making sure I make wise decisions, and step carefully and prayerfully. I am an impulsive creature. I jump. Fear of change is not one of the things I struggle with. It is really easy for me to get myself over committed, over scheduled, and exhausted. My challenge is slowing down, being prayerful in decision making, and not running ahead of Gods plan for me. I have taken inventory of my gifts, I have identified areas in which I would like to grow, fears I want to face, and now God is leading me to move. He knows me better than anyone, so he has put wise friends in my path to slow me down, to make me seek him first, and to not move forward until I feel that he has opened the door for me. Thank goodness for wise friends. I had a chance to take a long walk with my husband this evening, and talk a bit about all of the things swirling around in my brain. He supports most anything I want to take on, and rarely makes himself an obstacle to my running ahead. Tonight, he agreed that he supports my moving forward with some new commitments- he just wants me to make sure that I am filling up my life with things that matter, not things that just take up time. Wise words from my best friend.
I am swirling in chaos! Our little remodeling projects, ie: painting the boys rooms, have resulted in a whirl of mess, mess, mess. My husband has been diligently painting walls, repurposing furniture, meanwhile all of the clothing, shoes, toys, junk, furniture we are no longer using, etc... is lining the hallways and rooms of my house! We have tried to engage the boys in this project, but it has somehow eluded them that they have any responsibility for putting the house back together, so it it a painful exercise of command and whine. Today, we must put it back, we cannot start the week in madness. So my day, is going to be interesting. They need to help, a lot. I need to figure out how to motivate them to help, without them feeling like they are being tortured. Wish me luck, at 10:30, video games, and NFL TV go off, and cleaning commences. I'd better have another cup of coffee, and pray for the next half hour, I'm gonna need it.
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