Did you ever notice how if you take one family member out of the equation, the whole household vibe is different? My household is typically wild, and very noisy. Dogs running about, children playing, phones ringing, you get the picture. I try to zen out, but it is a serious challenge most days. It is so crazy most days, that the mere mention to my husband that I might give up my evening glass of wine because I am worried about the calories, brought on an unpredicted, "hmm, honey, I don't think that is a good idea, I mean, you really need to chill a little at the end of the day." Crazy, right? Well, my 10 year old son has been gone for the past few days. He is vacationing in Palm Springs with his friends family. It is strangely sedate around here. The fighting is at a minimum. Brothers are hanging out together, walking the dogs, playing games, and weirdly, there isn't a whole lot of yelling. I am actually able to concentrate on writing a bit, which is unheard of given that my computer is plop in the middle of chaos central. Now don't get me wrong, I miss my baby, but it is clear that he is an instigator of much of the craziness in this house. We'll have to work on that when he gets back.
I am a girl with strong faith. Strong, blind, childlike faith. My atheist friends are bewildered by it. They cannot understand how such a smart woman would believe such "nonsense". I have no explanation other than, I just do. I preface this post with that statement because, you won't find me quoting scripture here. Though I would if I were more confident in my ability to do so competently. I do not have that confidence, never have. I am a believer. My belief has been nurtured by life experience, by answered prayers, by constant evidence that God cares about me. I see his hand in big things and small. I look to him for guidance and help in all things. I am not a Biblical scholar. I have always been somewhat insecure about that. I am bolstered up by the words of a Godly woman much wiser than I who assures me that "I am living my walk out loud". My faith is not in my knowledge of the scripture, but in the...
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