A confused mind doesn't get much done

I have been thinking about various projects of late, trying to move forward on some, table others. I must admit, I am all over the map, my brain is swirling. In an attempt to define my next steps, I am praying for discernment. I need clear direction, and peace of mind that I am making the right choices. As a mother, and a wife, many decisions & action on those decisions depend on me being able to make a plan, and step forward. Kids are depending on me to fill out the right paperwork, do the right research, make the right recommendations. My husband needs me to keep all things related to our household moving, and working properly. I need to handle all of that, plus feel like I am moving ahead in service to God. All the while, making sure food is on the table, everyone is healthy, clean and fed, and trying not to miss deadlines for this & that. Sheesh, I am exhausted. So instead of tackling a bunch of stuff at once and doing nothing well, I am going to breakdown my afternoon action plan.

1. Make the kids lunch & clean up the dishes

2. Make myself a chai tea

3. Find a quiet spot

4. Hide my latest book from myself (The Constant Princess by Phillippa Gregory-- I am loving it and if I let myself I could read for hours)

5. Pray for peace, direction, and an end to whirling brain syndrome.

6. Write down, next steps.

7. Start one project

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