Good Morning everyone. I am sorry I have been off the radar for the past few days. I have to be honest, I have been a little emotionally overwhelmed. The earthquake and tsunami, and all of the loss associated with it, has been really weighing heavy. I have the same old problems I had the day before it happened. Some of them seem huge to me, but I have had trouble even praying about them, because it seems so selfish to me. To pray about what school to send my son to, or about our finances, or for a calm and peaceful spirit-- while huge to me, seem small. Let me tell you, that prayer makes a difference in how I function in my every day life. God lifts me up on days when my cozy bed is tempting me to "take a sick day" and sleep the day away. So here it is Monday, and I need to get back to the business of life. I will be on my knees praying for the people of Japan, but I know in my heart, nothing is to small for God. He can handle it all. Unlike me, he won't be emotionally overwhelmed. He cares about my having a peaceful spirit, so that I can be the Mom he wants me to be. He cares that I am stressed out over the family budget. He cares about Jack's education. Thank goodness for that, because I can't handle it on my own. :)
I am helping to prepare a baby shower for a young woman at our church. She is young, just 22. Thinking about her, and what the future may hold for her and her little family, got me to thinking about life at 22. Much has changed for me since I was 22. That was really a difficult time. I didn't realize at the time that it was difficult. I had graduated from college, was having a post college, pre-real life, super good time. I was bar tending, partying, picking up and traveling to far away places to party some more. I didn't really have much in the way of financial responsibility yet, and my parents were living in Egypt-- leaving me in charge of the house and my younger sister. It was an "out all night, sleep all day", kind of life. To be honest, I was setting a pretty poor example for my sister, who at the time was working full-time at a nursing home, and was far more responsible than I was. Looking back at that time, and even later, till about age 25, it make...
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