I have a huge question. When will I gain the very helpful skill of discernment? I think I hear God talking to me all of the time. Not like "I am hearing voices", crazy person hearing him talk to me. I hear that quiet voice, my gut telling me to head in this direction or that direction, to pursue this or not to pursue that, to do this to resolve this problem, etc.... The problem is, I don't trust my own judgement on some things. I fear that sometimes my inner voice is my own impulsive nature disguising itself as God. Or worse, the enemy is leading me down the wrong path by tempting me with my own desires. When do I get to be wise and discerning? When will I not be run ragged by my own ADD impulsive nature? Hmmmmmm. I don't know the answer to that question. I guess I will have to pray on that, and hope God decides to use a bullhorn to speak to me instead of a quiet voice next time. :)
I am a girl with strong faith. Strong, blind, childlike faith. My atheist friends are bewildered by it. They cannot understand how such a smart woman would believe such "nonsense". I have no explanation other than, I just do. I preface this post with that statement because, you won't find me quoting scripture here. Though I would if I were more confident in my ability to do so competently. I do not have that confidence, never have. I am a believer. My belief has been nurtured by life experience, by answered prayers, by constant evidence that God cares about me. I see his hand in big things and small. I look to him for guidance and help in all things. I am not a Biblical scholar. I have always been somewhat insecure about that. I am bolstered up by the words of a Godly woman much wiser than I who assures me that "I am living my walk out loud". My faith is not in my knowledge of the scripture, but in the...
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