I have a huge question. When will I gain the very helpful skill of discernment? I think I hear God talking to me all of the time. Not like "I am hearing voices", crazy person hearing him talk to me. I hear that quiet voice, my gut telling me to head in this direction or that direction, to pursue this or not to pursue that, to do this to resolve this problem, etc.... The problem is, I don't trust my own judgement on some things. I fear that sometimes my inner voice is my own impulsive nature disguising itself as God. Or worse, the enemy is leading me down the wrong path by tempting me with my own desires. When do I get to be wise and discerning? When will I not be run ragged by my own ADD impulsive nature? Hmmmmmm. I don't know the answer to that question. I guess I will have to pray on that, and hope God decides to use a bullhorn to speak to me instead of a quiet voice next time. :)
I am helping to prepare a baby shower for a young woman at our church. She is young, just 22. Thinking about her, and what the future may hold for her and her little family, got me to thinking about life at 22. Much has changed for me since I was 22. That was really a difficult time. I didn't realize at the time that it was difficult. I had graduated from college, was having a post college, pre-real life, super good time. I was bar tending, partying, picking up and traveling to far away places to party some more. I didn't really have much in the way of financial responsibility yet, and my parents were living in Egypt-- leaving me in charge of the house and my younger sister. It was an "out all night, sleep all day", kind of life. To be honest, I was setting a pretty poor example for my sister, who at the time was working full-time at a nursing home, and was far more responsible than I was. Looking back at that time, and even later, till about age 25, it make...
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