We are living in precarious times. So many people are suffering. Job losses, health issues, unforeseen tragedy.... has it always been this way? Is it just our turn to go through the mill because we are really adults now, or is it harder for our generation than for our parents? It just seems as if so many good people are running into really difficult times. Over the past 2 years my family has had a season of really difficult financial times. Challenging as it has been, it has definitely been a refining season for us. We see our lives differently now. We are so fortunate. We have a beautiful, close, family. We are blessed with truly good friends. We have a warm and welcoming home. I don't yearn for a flashy car, and a huge home. We don't need fancy vacations, and expensive entertainment every weekend. Contentment is the most incredible gift I could have ever asked for. The true definition of contentment for me is, wanting what you have. I wish I could wrap that gift up and give it away, but contentment is a gift you have to give to yourself.
I enter this new week a little tired, but smiling. Why? No drama this weekend. We had sunshine, and sports, and cuddle time--- less the drama. Most families don't experience the intense level of emotions that the Rhodes clan does. Sure, they have the hectic life of families, perhaps some fighting, the normal mess--- perhaps a little teen hormone induced drama....but we have drama of a different kind in our house. The kind of drama caused by a brain that is shooting off crazy chemicals induced by years of trauma. When our son Victor is home, the whole world is a great big land mine. Saying the wrong thing, calling him out on behavior, or even suggesting that he not eat a 4th serving of ice cream can cause the the peace to recede, and for chaos to ensue. He is now in a boarding school for kids with emotional issues. As sad as it is that our family isn't all together--- I must admit that the peace in our household is a welcome blessing. We are learning more and more
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