Everything big and small...

Good Morning everyone. I am sorry I have been off the radar for the past few days. I have to be honest, I have been a little emotionally overwhelmed. The earthquake and tsunami, and all of the loss associated with it, has been really weighing heavy. I have the same old problems I had the day before it happened. Some of them seem huge to me, but I have had trouble even praying about them, because it seems so selfish to me. To pray about what school to send my son to, or about our finances, or for a calm and peaceful spirit-- while huge to me, seem small. Let me tell you, that prayer makes a difference in how I function in my every day life. God lifts me up on days when my cozy bed is tempting me to "take a sick day" and sleep the day away. So here it is Monday, and I need to get back to the business of life. I will be on my knees praying for the people of Japan, but I know in my heart, nothing is to small for God. He can handle it all. Unlike me, he won't be emotionally overwhelmed. He cares about my having a peaceful spirit, so that I can be the Mom he wants me to be. He cares that I am stressed out over the family budget. He cares about Jack's education. Thank goodness for that, because I can't handle it on my own. :)

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