I have a huge question. When will I gain the very helpful skill of discernment? I think I hear God talking to me all of the time. Not like "I am hearing voices", crazy person hearing him talk to me. I hear that quiet voice, my gut telling me to head in this direction or that direction, to pursue this or not to pursue that, to do this to resolve this problem, etc.... The problem is, I don't trust my own judgement on some things. I fear that sometimes my inner voice is my own impulsive nature disguising itself as God. Or worse, the enemy is leading me down the wrong path by tempting me with my own desires. When do I get to be wise and discerning? When will I not be run ragged by my own ADD impulsive nature? Hmmmmmm. I don't know the answer to that question. I guess I will have to pray on that, and hope God decides to use a bullhorn to speak to me instead of a quiet voice next time. :)
I enter this new week a little tired, but smiling. Why? No drama this weekend. We had sunshine, and sports, and cuddle time--- less the drama. Most families don't experience the intense level of emotions that the Rhodes clan does. Sure, they have the hectic life of families, perhaps some fighting, the normal mess--- perhaps a little teen hormone induced drama....but we have drama of a different kind in our house. The kind of drama caused by a brain that is shooting off crazy chemicals induced by years of trauma. When our son Victor is home, the whole world is a great big land mine. Saying the wrong thing, calling him out on behavior, or even suggesting that he not eat a 4th serving of ice cream can cause the the peace to recede, and for chaos to ensue. He is now in a boarding school for kids with emotional issues. As sad as it is that our family isn't all together--- I must admit that the peace in our household is a welcome blessing. We are learning more and more
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